It’s not your fault…

I’ll tell you how you feel. You feel helpless, you feel unhappy, you feel angry, you feel confused and just feel like giving up.

Don’t…It’s not your fault

You don’t believe this, I lash out, I don’t trust you, I say hurtful words then in the click of a finger I love you, I’m kind to you and ask you not to leave.

That’s not your fault…

That smell, that sound, that word, that song or that touch in my complex mind blows up thoughts and takes me back to that unsafe place. I respond in a way you will never understand, I push you away but want you there but that’s not your fault. The trigger may have been you but still it’s not your fault.

I want you to know more about BPD you could read all the books in the world but you would probably never understand and that’s not your fault!

“Identity Disturbance – unstable self image or sense of self”

Im different with family, I’m different in a shop, I’m different at work, I’m different with friends, I’m different with my daughter and I’m different with you.

But that is not your fault.

Just call me your human chameleon.

People with BPD are probably the most loving, caring people but don’t actually know how to show it.

This borderline loves you…but guess what?

That IS your fault.